Readings for today: 1 Timothy 1-6
My life is living proof that God can save anyone. I was truly walking in darkness before the light of Christ changed my life. I was depressed. I was lonely. I was anxious and fearful. I was broken in all sorts of ways. My future was bleak. The walls of my life were closing in on me. I was locked in a downward spiral and didn’t have the strength or the fortitude or the wisdom to know how to pull myself out. I was lost. It certainly didn’t have to be that way. I had faithful parents who took me to church every Sunday. I was an honor student. An all-state athlete. An Eagle Scout. A leader in our youth group and soloist in the church choir. But I was living a double life. My inner world did not match my outer world. And that’s what led to my collapse in college. My heart was hardened to the gospel. My selfishness and pride and addictions to achievement and success had killed off any possibility of faith. I was on a rapid descent into a deep, dark pit and that’s when the Lord reached down and saved me. He lifted me up. Set my feet on solid ground. Gave me a new song to sing. Changed my heart and my life forever.
The Apostle Paul had a similar experience and I love how he describes it to Timothy. “Here’s a word you can take to heart and depend on: Jesus Christ came into the world to save sinners. I’m proof—Public Sinner Number One—of someone who could never have made it apart from sheer mercy. And now he shows me off—evidence of his endless patience—to those who are right on the edge of trusting him forever.” (1 Timothy 1:15-16 MSG) Paul saw himself as the chief of sinners. He was public enemy number one on Christ’s hit list. He was the greatest enemy of the redeemed. He was seeking them out. Dragging them out of their homes and putting them in jail. He placed them on trial and sought their execution. He believed with all his heart that Christianity represented an existential threat to Judaism so he did all he could to combat the rise of this new faith. Not only that but Paul was a Pharisee. He believed with all his heart that if he remained faithful to the covenant, maintained the traditions of his ancestors, kept Torah and taught others to do the same that he would be declared righteous before God. Meeting the Risen Christ on the road outside Damascus radically changed Paul. Everything he thought he once knew went out the window as the amazing grace of God took hold of him.
From that point forward, Paul understood his life was to be lived in a very public way before the world. He was a living testimony to God’s grace. A living demonstration of God’s power to change even the hardest of hearts and the most rebellious of sinners. Everywhere he went, God “showed him off” as “evidence of His endless patience” to those who were considering placing their faith in Christ. I feel the same way. It’s why I live as transparently as possible. It’s why I share openly about my life as often as I do. Every bit of my life - the good, bad, and ugly - is all evidence of God’s great mercy and grace. I have nothing to call my own. I’ve done nothing on my own. Jesus Christ came into the world to save sinners and I was standing in the front of that line. Now my life is His to command. My steps are His to direct. All of my brokenness He puts on display to demonstrate the power of His grace to save even the worst of sinners. What about you? Is your life a demonstration of the grace of God? Do you understand the depths from which Christ saved you and the heights to which Christ has brought you?
Readings for tomorrow: None