Readings for today: Job 12-15, Psalms 138
“The life of every living thing is in his hand, as well as the breath of all humanity.” (Job 12:10 CSB) This is perhaps the hardest lesson for us humans to learn. Truly it is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the Living God. Everything stripped away. All your resources tapped out. Your strength having failed. Your wisdom having led you to a dead end. Every choice you made gone wrong. Life taken down to the studs. I’ve been there. I know the journey well. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy and yet I wouldn’t change it for the world. For it was there, at the end of myself, that I discovered my life is truly in God’s hands. He gives me my every breath. He fills me with every good and perfect gift. Nothing I have is mine. Nothing I’ve done is to my credit. Nothing I’ve achieved is my accomplishment. It is God who gives me strength to wake up each morning. It is God who gives me peace to lay down and rest each night. It is God who gives me the wisdom to make righteous choices. It is God who provides every opportunity. It is God who blesses me with every resource. It is God who fills me with His Spirit. I am on His time. My life is like grass. Here today and gone tomorrow. I have but a few turns around the sun and then I will fade from memory. Within a generation or two, I will simply be another name on a headstone in a small town cemetery in Western Nebraska. Nothing more.
I know that sounds depressing but honestly, I can think of nothing more freeing. My life is not my own. I live and I move and I have my being in God. I serve and I give and I obey my Lord and Savior. My life is His to command as He sees fit. If He were to lift me up, I will serve. If He lays me low, I will serve. If He gives me success, I will give Him all the glory. If He makes me fail, I will praise Him even more. And these are not empty platitudes for me. I have been to the mountaintop and seen the glory of God firsthand and I’ve been in the deepest, darkest valley and praised God from those depths. Like Job, I have experienced God take just about everything away. I even almost lost my family. But the one thing I never lost was God. He was always there. And what did I learn from that experience? That dark night of the soul? I learned what Job learned. “Be quiet, and I will speak. Let whatever comes happen to me. I will put myself at risk and take my life in my own hands. Even if he kills me, I will hope in him. I will still defend my ways before him. Yes, this will result in my deliverance, for no godless person can appear before him.” (Job 13:13-16 CSB)
God is the only constant in this life. He is the one fixed point in the universe. There is no shadow or turning with Him. There is no change in His nature or character. He alone is Faithful and True. His promises are sure because He is sure. His commitment is unwavering because He is unwavering. His love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things because His love never fails. It casts out all fear. It answers every question. It erases every doubt. God’s love is the reason we can come to Him with anything. We can curse Him in anger or cry out to Him in grief or call on Him for comfort and we can count on Him to be there. He can handle every emotion we throw at Him and then some. His love is more than enough to absorb it all because His love paid for it all.
Readings for tomorrow: Job 16-19, Psalms 139