Readings for today: Genesis 27-28, Matthew 10:26-42
One of the most difficult concepts for me to grasp is the unconditional nature of God’s love. It is foreign to me. Alien. Strange. I cannot comprehend it because I cannot manufacture it in my own life. Even with those closest to me, unconditional love is difficult. What happens when they disappoint me? Let me down? Hurt my feelings? Sin against me? What happens when they are inconsiderate? Ignore my needs? Push me away? When these things happen, I find myself layering all kinds of “conditions” on my forgiveness and reconciliation. There are hoops the other person must now jump through in order for me to love them again. We use all kinds of buzz words and phrases to describe these conditions. We talk about boundaries. We ask questions like “are they a safe person?” We demand to see remorse before we forgive. And I’m actually not saying these things are unimportant. Too many people use the “unconditional” love of God to justify all kinds of abuse but the point still holds. Unconditional love is impossible for us to grasp.
Simply consider the events in today’s reading. Having stolen Esau’s birthright, Jacob now steals his blessing. He conspires with his mother to take advantage of his disabled father in order to become the paterfamilias of the family. This means Jacob will now hold the power of life and death over his household. He will inherit all the wealth. His word will be law for those who serve him. Esau, of course, flies into a murderous rage and plots to kill his brother. So Rebekah sends Jacob away for safety. On his journey, God visits Jacob in a dream. One might expect God to confront Jacob on his sin. One might expect God to make some demands of Jacob before He blesses him. One might expect God to require obedience to His will in order for Jacob to secure the promises of the covenant. In short, one might expect God to righteously lay down some conditions or “boundaries” here to force Jacob to reform his behavior. But God shocks our sensibilities by offering Jacob nothing but unconditional love.
“I am the Lord, the God of Abraham your father and the God of Isaac. The land on which you lie I will give to you and to your offspring. Your offspring shall be like the dust of the earth, and you shall spread abroad to the west and to the east and to the north and to the south, and in you and your offspring shall all the families of the earth be blessed. Behold, I am with you and will keep you wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land. For I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.” (Genesis 28:13-15) No conditions. No boundaries. It doesn’t seem to matter that Jacob is not a “safe” person and cannot be trusted. God simply chooses unconditionally to set His love on this corrupt and sinful man. I love how Jacob responds. He’s so uncomfortable with God’s lack of conditions that he decides to put some on himself. “Then Jacob made a vow, saying, “If God will be with me and will keep me in this way that I go, and will give me bread to eat and clothing to wear, so that I come again to my father’s house in peace, then the Lord shall be my God, and this stone, which I have set up for a pillar, shall be God’s house. And of all that you give me I will give a full tenth to you.” (Genesis 28:20-22)
I don’t know about you but I identify with Jacob. I have been the manipulator. The schemer. I have sought to get ahead by shading the truth or exaggerating my accomplishments or spinning things in my favor. I am often driven by selfish motives. I am often tempted by greed. I often put conditions on my love for others and my love for God. I am a broken and sinful man in so many ways. But God is faithful. His love for me is unconditional. He loves me for who I am, warts and all. His blessings flow into my life not because I am more obedient than the next person but simply because God has chosen to lavish His grace on me. And the more I surrender. The more I submit. The more I listen to Jesus and trust Him when He says, “whoever loses his life for my sake will find it” (Matthew 10:39), the more my eyes are open to everything God has done for me. Once the reality of God’s unconditional love settles into my heart, I find myself not only able but willing to extend that same love out to others.
Readings for tomorrow: Genesis 29-30, Matthew 11